Building the foundation.

This post is part of a series I'm doing culminating in a celebration at my March retreat.

Learn more about the series and journey I'm on HERE

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Well this definitely did not become a "weekly" series but I'm OK with that. I didn't want to force these posts and only wanted to share when it felt right and like I actually had something to share. I am well into the reset part of this journey. There was never a distinct shift, just a gradual move towards a new phase. I have no doubt there are things I still need to release and let go of but I feel what is left is not something to be let go of but something to be transformed. I feel as though I'm in this in between world where I've let go of the old me, I'm not quite the new me, and both are fighting to be seen.

One thing I realized in all of this is I don't really want or need to let go of the old me, I need to integrate her and allow her to settle, feel safe and seen and come on the journey into this new way of being. If I keep pushing her away, she's just going to keep fighting for her life and keep me stuck where I don't want to be. In this resetting phase, I am learning how to work with the various parts of myself and how to bring some closure to old parts to allow them to flourish into the new.

Externally I'm trying some new schedules and habits in my day to day life to see what will help me to thrive in this slightly chaotic period of life. I've been getting physical things organized, getting calendars in order, and working on the foundations of a variety of projects. It feels like when you build a home and you are digging and building out the foundation. Nothing looks all that great yet. In fact it looks like an epic mess and it's really hard to even envision the final product but it's actually the most important piece of the whole thing. It's the part that ensures the beautiful masterpiece you see at the end doesn't crumble.

That's where I'm at. I'm building out new habits and routines, I'm reprioritizing where my energy goes. I'm evaluating all parts of my physical self, relationships, responsibilities, my finances, career, hobbies and daily practices, my physical space. . .all of it. I cleared the gunk and am focused on setting the stage to build a life I can be really proud of and happy with. No more reacting to what's thrown my way, I'm intentionally designing a life I love and that is in full alignment with my being and purpose.

This does not mean I'm just done with my healing and that I've been able to cure all that ails me. Far from it. I have a whole new layer of things that have come up to start confronting and working through but I am finding ways to do that while also moving forward and living my life. There will always be things. As we heal we are able to go deeper and deeper and apparently I have a lot shit lurking in depths that I didn't know existed. The difference now is I feel equipped to do that work alongside building this new life. It's not something that is stopping me in tracks and leaving me frozen in place.

If any of this resonates, let me know. It seems like a lot of people are on a similar journey right now. Whether it is our age or world events or astrology (I'd argue it's some of all three). we're all in this together and I'm here to help in any way I can. I do have an actual program you can check out HERE but am also just happy to chat and connect anytime.

"Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose site of the shore."